today was a big break through for me .. yeaps
didnt know a casual chat with a friend, and i got the news i always yearn to have

the guy whose been close to the girl i like is actually her ex.
can see she is still very much in love with the guy dispite breaking up.
also theres plan to repatch up.

dunno wat to do sia.... go in between them and try to win her heart ?
or let her be back with her ex-beau ?

really want the best for her ...... hai

all right .. today i shall go "dirty" .. wahahha .. not that dirty .. dun think far far

most of you people know War World 2 right .. haha .. yeaps today bout war

War important aspect are environment, ammunation stratgey etc right ? well today i just go straing to environment and ammunation

when u shit. or do ur business... dont u find it danm fasturating to see it dirty and disgusting that makes u unable to go on ? .. yeaps tts right.. doing business in toilet is like going to war..
a clean environement will make u shit smoother , and provide with adequate toilet paper,ur ammunition is well taken of and u shit more smoothly .. hahahah


ok then... to make this society more graceful, we shouldn't say shit... i would put it in terms.. "Going to War"
wahaha .. and people would ask u .. wat world ?

tell them this ...
" War World 2 , cannot tahan liao.. pearl harbour coming !!"
what is pearl harbour ? .. refers to shitting that pops out in the form of chocolate balls.. yeaps
what is iron curtain ? .. refers to shitting that shit in a "roll" shape .. smooth and easy
what is nuclear warfare ? .. refers to "lao sai" or diareoh ., dunno how to spell. .yeaps

wahaha.. hope u had ur dinner.. thanks for listening .. more to come soon !

really lost on blogging liao. .dunno wat to blog wat to say

cause i am at such a whirlwind.. u are so busy .. yet when i try to concern.. you made me think i am bugging u .. do u know i miss u alot ?


think school has been great bah , but getting irritated by people who say i am very good at this subject that subject. I am not ok !!.. i am just human ..

thanks for clearing up !! you made my life much more easier to live with now. just one lil questions but i'll take one step at a time =)

hmm.. have i been really a sad person ? i must my younger brother is danm mature.. he has a mind well beyond his 9 year old brains

yeaps.. i been the slowest to mature in my family.. all my younger peers look beyond their age..

but one being a lil childish with the act though.. stuck at the sweet 16 year old years.. need to work !

hehe .. tonights aint raining anymore .. it aint cold.. .thanks !

i am going REALLY CRAZY over you, yes you ! when ur msn pic potrays the killer smile, i just cant type properly to you, all the typos all the errors.

but suddenly it seems like i don't even know you anymore, what you are busy with, what you have been doing . you turn so cold .. like the weather.yeaps strangely but true, the recent weather has been exactly the way i felt of you towards me. cold, silent and unpredictable.

when girls go cold war with you, it just not right. danm it. please someone explains the gazillions why? what ? who ? questions in me. all u need is an hour to explain and it will clear my
24 hours / 7 days of pondering over you

family wise.. hmm.. all wells i hope bah. it might be a false alarm anyway and i definatly hope it is. life is so short yet all has to face the last part. is this the way the life of cycle should go? haiz

danm.. yesterday recieve the shocking news. .. please let this not happen..

people say, when you are down,everything goes down.. and if those that have been flowing it seems good thigns never last for me ...

firstly, my crush, June 09 was the day I receive the beautiful sms.. June 18 where things start to subside and blown up .. .yeaps.. shes no longer sms-ing me nether replying me .. keep going to away mode .. maybe i pushed it too far ?..

secondly, my sch work, i haven done it .. danm .. schools opening like in 6 days.

thirdly family problems ,ever mounting , ever problamatic.. recent news of my dad makes me danm worried.. and with the danm show potraying a fucking reality.. i am in real dillema

tears are just holding back now, how long ? i dont know ......

stuck in a big fat mess now ..
so many things to do, so little times to get arranged

412 days was the exact days we known each other , took me 25 days of recent months to know u better , and one day to decide , you are the one for me

but now 2 weeks on, the distance moved and it seems like u know me no more. was watching the 9 pm show , on Channel 8

the lead charactor Ah Hock said this few lines which is danm true :
" You like someone does not mean he/she has to feel the same way for you."
" Do you hate her/him because he/she doesn't choose you ? Are you being selfish ? "


thats the question I should have been asking myself.


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Okay anyways, moving on to life. Got a java application to complete. Danm she gave me a B and now it seems so hard that if I dont do, I will get my C's over and over. But I fucking don't know how to do that shit !!!

Then got this proposal to do. Danm it took away my two weeks beautiful holiday but it has been rather worthwhile. Things like finding out my classmate is is pimarcy sch friend etc. Also that duriing the period where we got a lil more closer.........

BBQ got cancelled, due to some minor blips and flops .. the distance between friends really gets widen up when you don't strengthen.. just like the ropes that bind things together, they will break and snap one day if you dont tighten it or change it for the better

didn't expect i wrote so much ? .. well more to come.. .cuase i am gonna read a mini biography of her.. look out

yeaps, i am back at home, sitting on this hard red plastic chair.
the first thing i got home was to be greeted by my brother's rowdyness and noiseness, my lil cousin endearing calling of "BIG KOR KOR" and my mum's ever lasting care..

Family warmth, the best form of returning from a camp =)


Pondering, has it been more of a one sided thingy by me ? Has I gone one step too far in making a conclusion ? But what has the sms sent out by her mean to her? a form of fooling me ? or a form of a friend to friend tease ? obviosly i took neither , and went further with other, liking ?
but it appears none ? sometimes i feel i take people wors too seriosly but thats the way i have been since young ; naive and simple.

well anyways she's gone to somewhere for the day and hopefully we can get clear up somehow , but hopefully, no more nicey dovey ? .. i just can't seem to take it no more .. cause i am starting to falling deeper for u ..

if only ......

she could look at this blog, but i aint confident enough to let her see , neither to confess up ,

well , i just end of here , sleeping in 15 mins time , working tml , and hoping to hear from her soon . ..

ciaoz

its 154 am.. sitting on the class chair.. last night of camp already.. so fast has the days gone

had fun playing around , mingling with the SIT mates .. yeah for whom some I known personally

facing the projector projecting Constatine.. haha seen such a fun camp b4 ? can surf net.. sleep in classroom... lol


but feeling uneasy .. cause at certain point .. the certain someone said " i got no bf"
and then another moment.. she keeps meeting a certain someone . .
though i have pieced up small information with regards to not being that.. i still aint sure

cause if they are really dating . i do not want to break them up

so many questions.. so little answer.. only to be made worst with her inconsistence care....

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED NOW
for what i have chose turn out to be a sour piece of shit
there are so many questions to be answered , so many points to be cleared

i am so sad.....

yeah... i know its kinda late but todays tuesday

yeah.. sunday went out to meet my malaysia friend or should say brother bah

believe it or not i met him online when I was 13 and he was like in high school only !
How times fly and now that he has even graduated from Uni and now a working man. yeah he was here in singapore to do some business seminar and we met up and chat up.

then at night , what was suppose to be waiting for her.. turns out to me waiting me instead.. yeah .. screw up when taking bus .. so embrassed . . but nonetheless i made the time by sending her home( second time only !!)
was embrassed .. but shes the second girl who gave me the feel.. a feel undescrible by words

dunno whether she feels the same about me .. but lets say.. time will tell .. .

Monday and Today, went out to rush the proposal . yeah haha
everyone felt the same about a certain someone who didnt do much work.. yeah
finally my anger of 7 weeks was able to be disperse and said out sigh

its midnight already .. and yeah 6 hrs later i will be going for camp
hopefully i will blog soon yeah..

take care guys and blog reader.. .hehe i will miss u guys . .ciaoz =p

hehe .. i been in super happy mood recently .. everything's seems to be back to normal and lifes been in smooth transition

the world seems smaller as I know more friend and often or not this friend has connection to me in one way or another .. haha

work was fun today, easy and smooth .. simple set up , clearing etc..

all right . .i cut short now .. tml gonna be a busy day ! = )

happy but sad ?


yeah... very happy again..hahaha
but then also sad.. cause haven settle the problem with friend.. hai...

the next few days will be busy but guess i will get to enjoy it bah

lol.. yeah .. its a super small world
haha.. today went out today some business proposal with my polymates
but didnt expected that a casual chat turns out to be a big messup !

yea.. tt one of the polymate is my primary sch mate !! haha smalll world right
buts whats even worst was tt we were classmate of the same class b4 in primary school but we both jsut did not have any impression of each other ! ROFL

haha and turns out that most of the friends we know are friend of each other .. whahaha

yeaps.. today was a happy day .. as it turns out during dinner .. a lil sms turn the day even better !! totally happy day.. though been a busy holiday.. but the transistion of bad mood to good mood was superb hehe

hmm wondered I got blocked anot..

yeaps saw the personal message in one instance.. and another not

who cares.. .. lol today went back to school.. wow !! camps galore..years 1 , year 2 plus year 3
RP is bustling with life.. at last ! loll


todays was a boring day.. spent at the workshop .. hehe
and gd luckies bro.. just one step !! dont screw it .. all the way =p

yea.. got myself a new skin.. with some help from kenny .. thanks dude !

yeaps.. in case u wondering why my girl column are all ?? .. well tts because I aint got a a gF !!
tt's right.. well.. lets just hope I'll get to update that column hehe


today was pretty boring .. had lunch with kenny at TP .. went home and slack..

Jaimie Oliver is my Idol !! .. yeaps.. he can cook a mean dish.. jsut by looking through the show melts my tounge .. woot !!

yeah ..tml got a workshop in school.. so ciaoz !

yeap screw up alot of things this past few days

life is getting out of control !!! .. one moment.. I taste Sweetness, another I taste bitter and another I taste sour


why sweetness ? because someone melt my heart .. and I learnt to play magic .. yea
bitter ? had a tiff with friend .. yeah .. sian 1/2
sour .. jealousy ? haha dunno also

3 weeks of holiday .. 3 weeks of being pennyless
first two week go to school.. last week.. do sch project... sian !!!
RP lots of holiday, little time to work..

today lesson early end.. not too bad as I guess
went with friend to buy AirDunk .. .Danm nice... but sadly no funds now

then went with kenny,poh, woo go see movie.. Monster-In-Law.. funny show man

while in show.. caught something intresting.. lol ..

find myself abit paranoid and nosey.. or maybe I am just concern ? .. when see got guy with her ... I become danm uneasy.. MCP ?

dunno leh.. have been always advising people.. whens my turn to get advised ?


This is a Theory of Mine :

A = Attention.. Getting the girls attention
B = Befriend .. Befriending and Getting to Know Her
C = Caring/Concern.. Show you care and concern her
D = Developement .. Develope your releationship with her when mutual feelings cross
E = Engagement .. BGR ...


Sians ........