The fact that I have to go to work everyday to face my students is already a daunting task.
Everyday is a new challenge and everyday I wonder, how am I suppose to carry out my lessons in a more fun yet understandable way.
I'm not one who scolds people and people who known me over the years should know I seldom flare up for no reasons. But because of my job, I have to shout and look fierce. But its just doesn't seem to be that way always as only the younger ones will be scared.

To further confirm this, students feed back to me as being : "soft-looking, easy to ride over"
and further comments from teachers within the school ? : " boring. "
i did not get this off mouth but from words. and its easy to find things pointing to you.

well, to have such comments surely give me pain as I value peoples feedback and comments. From there, I try to change and learn; but teaching? its takes experience and better training. Somethings are born to be and some are not. Well, teaching is one I guess for me.

I think that schools nowadays are cramming students with too much extra classes after school and the fact they neglect that interest are not build over a day and things like robotics is definitely not one thing that people will like straight away. I think they should make it an optional one so as those who are interested can learn in a more conducive environment; thus not wasting my time to teach and at least it makes my job easier.

Well tomorrow's my last lesson in that school for robotics and hope that I will only leave with fun memories of students who are willing to listen to me attentively, even for just 1 minutes of my "BORING" lesson.

after 2 wks of "enlistment" my comp is back from FUJITSU platoon SERVICE 1
due to poor fitness, it had to go for a thorough hardware test.
failed fan, keyboard, a/c port and broken hinge were mentioned. but only two were rectified as budget was low.
hope Private Laptop-Always-Problem wont have to report back camp soon.

been really busy running around my working schedules and also using $$ like water.

food,transportation, etc is costing a "bomb" with the recent hike in GST

there's sort of uneasy feeling around me lately. i dunno why but i feel jumpy and stressful nowadays. lot to think about.
escape is not an option it seems. it the oh-i-am-still-feeling that feeling that slowly moved back. i probably should have stuck firm and not be lenient.

like what my students and boss said: " soft, not strict, no firm stand "
my face just can't portray anger/fierceness and thats probably why people are riding over my head all the time.
2 and 1/2 mths more to army and i am really looking forward to it.

i still try to find out here and there about your life but its just only a way to tell myself you are safe.