i am suppose to do my FYP but i am f***ing doing nuts
i am f***ing tired but who f***ing cares
i am suppose to decroate and finalise my PP and i am f***ing not bothering

somehow people who seems close to you are not that close after all.
on the outside , seen hanging out together, doing things etc.
but when it comes to problems, they dont f***ing care and vice-versa

i hate people who says problems can be shared and not doing so
its when you find out then you realise life aint that simple
simply put , people you trust can no longer be trusted.

i am sick and tired of this dog chase goose game .
my body can't take it anymore .
i am just going to be transparent to everything and say F*** off to this F***ing world.

*remember to upload correct RJ
*remember to do self evaluation

yeah . i forgotten and mis-upload for two modules . Sure downgrade liao.

sat. went to australia uni. talk at orchard hotel. well not bad. got a few information on studying in Australia and that the fee is darn expensive. roughly 45k for a year's study ( staying in campus hostel )

well that's just one options i am keeping a look out. starting to save .

i must say i have been "cold blooded" now adays.
i am starting to ignore people who don't bother to keep in touch in me.
( me being the one contacting them)
less trusting people. the longer i see it , the more i see the world as a shady place.

thats fine with me. it dont make a diff.

people say i have changed. attitude wise , prespective wise.
more determine and more critical. have i been one ?

sometimes i crave for attention. who don't ?
but that dont always come your way. you fight your way for it.
i just carry on with my life , do my work , graduate and worry bout my future more.

a day in heaven is a year in earth

and the days i spent everyday are more than a drag.

memory is really failing me . need to relate to things before i remember something.
and what's with all those '90s song playing nowadays. bring back lots of memories.
people born in my era would remember songs by

Moffatts, BackstreetBoys , 911 , Westlife etc.

just as you listen, it seems time moves back and you see flashes of your earlier years.
the days where most of us were young,naive and carefree.
how i yearn for it again.

if science said human uses only 10% of their brain, then yy said he only uses 50 % of his heart.
half of my heart has gone somewhere.
where? i dunno.

there's a little angel and devil in human. both called EGO.
the angel side of ego allows you to be motivated, wanting to succeed even more in life, show your confidence.
the devil side of ego makes you neglect your friends for your own gains. self-centered some might say.

7 days a week, i spend around 7 hrs a day sleeping, 4 hrs at home, the rest of the day rotting outside in school.
year 3 has been busy, really busy.

PP presentation got to rush.make a nice poster present it on 6/6/06 . wooT nice day huh ..
got another test on 14/6/06.
2 weeks of June holiday and plans has already made it tight schedule .

in 5 months time , i will be retaking my O's.
in 10 months time , i will be off to NS.
time definatly moved fast =)

haven't been blogging.
due to :

1. Laziness.
2.More Laziness.

lol .

Okay. hmm . PP approved. date to present is on 6/6/06 . sounds evil right . lol
and its on a holiday somemore . gosh . just to come down make me dread
and my UT is on next week 415 p.m on my OFF day.


STM . Short Term Memory.

yeah been suffering from it lately.
1. Forgot that i didnt have swimming lesson and went for it instead.
2. Forget that i got two ezlink card in my wallet and that i jsut went on to buy my bus pass.
Thankfully, SBS got this system( probably) to detect whether its an adult or student pass.
If not its $52 gone the drain.

HA. Huge Appetite

I average out $4- $6 per meals and while it seems good, its killing my wallet.
Gosh. eating is such a pleasure but the spending aint.

sunday - went out with primary school friends to celebrate one of thier birthday . eating and slacking along orcahrd area and esplanade. had to cancel late night plans as the birthday boy had problems with stomach ,take care= o

monday - 1/5 . went out with jonhson . take his bluetooth thingy. then we walked around orchard area again . haha . he bought his handphone pouch while i window shop . lol
then bought Angels and Demons . quite exciting from the starting part. wahah

got my first A for this sem. came as a suprise. hope this will continue =p