it's been awhile since I dream about you; the all-so familiar looks/smile/vehicle.
yet all I could hear was your murmuring, I want more but I know it''ll never happen. Am I just seeking in your solace once again ?

the stress been piling up and I realized that because I been badly foul mouth lately, temper rising and it doesn't help with the humid weather. sometimes I feel myself as a SOB but yet people say I am too nice, too compliant.

adding in failing my tp test once again doesn't help at all. i know deep down i have somethings i wish to made known but i rather keep it as a small memory...... and it's never working well when you grow too attached to your working environment because the routine work, the daily challenge you faced and the life-reflection moments; things like this will be gone soon.

probably like most say; i need a long vacation. somewhere,someplace, somehow. ..

Busy, yet boring. How contradicting. Just like how people contradicts at their statement of late.

The days are drawing nearing;
EPL ending and almost done and dusted.
So does the change of management. Something which I am not looking forward but inevitable.

Sometimes I just wished that certain things came earlier and so I still could done something 'bout it but who am I to kid, things gone will never reappear, unless miracle does exist.

I simply love my job, because the life learning experience never cease to enlighten me or stir the feelings in me, and sometimes I wished I could expressed it on the scene itself, but being a professional, I just have to learn to control.

It does amazes me that I am able to control myself despite all the stirring going on....

It's been awhile since I pen down my thoughts. There's always a limitations because I refuse to put up certain things.

1st issue: Officially failed my bike TP twice. Guess I am not destined. 3rd one's coming up soon.

2nd issue: 50% through in settling my post-ORD plans; which is heading to Uni for a 3.5-4 years studies. Left with my matriculation, and the most crucial of all; finding the all important cash of 30K ++. My plans most likely settled towards in working part time while studying, else hoping for bursaries coming along the way.

There's been a niggling feeling in my mind lately and I can't seem to shake it off easily. No definite problems.
I am lucky I was enlisted into the unit which was my dream career since young and I definitely enjoy the moment but people always told me NS and being a regular is different; which I beg to differ as I believe I can take up the additional works required. After all, who gets a no strings attached 1 year plus trial in a potential future career ? But now, being an undergrad soon, I just hope to clear my next 4 years smoothly and at the ripe age of 27 then, lets just hope things will be a smooth road. And I would not rule out a career in my NS vocation; if the fire in me is still burning.

i am back, after a long hiatus; that is if anyone even bothered to read whats here.

its rather surreal that I am left with only 4 months of NS. pretty much around this time last year I was just barely leaving my training school for my posting.

currently left with less than 12 hrs to my much anticipated TP. hopefully its a one-time thing. also went for my interview, lets hope everything goes through smoothly.
Post-ORD planning is really stressful.

i Swear; the next friend who submits my name and contact number to agencies, would get it.

one more call received from some yoga class place, ..

it's amazing. this is me typing on my laptop which has gone past 4 years with me.
the original charger died right during my poly days and in between 2 more substitute charger died on too..

I had no choice but to lend my sis's friend original and when i was overjoyed it was compatible, it died in less than a month ! I was so sad yet pissed yet out of words.

BUT miracle happens ! suddenly, it worked back today and I promise I will cherished my charger .

wake up from your dreams !!

Being a listening post is never good.
Why do I feel weird sometimes; a feeling that's sour yet bitter for no reasons.