Saturday, January 14, 2006

feeling terrible nowadays. faking smiles, quiteness.
its been a terrible 4 mths into my 19 years old birthday.

if you want to do it, do it in front of me. doing at the back, what you think you can achieve ?
it allows makes me misplace my trust for you. time after time i tell myself, its nothing, just normal routine.
but its getting so obvious, you are showing all signs of liking. please i am no 3 year old kid.

not trying to say anything here. but you do change mind fast enough. a little incentives does the trick. why dont u just kill the hopes i held once and for all ? its terrible. i understand your view point but tried understanding from my point ?

my dads passing was a very hard blow to dealt with. even though 4 mths has gone fast and swift, i still ache when i see loving families on the straight, words of friends having a caring family behind thier back.
just need someone to talk to, enlighten me.
the problem adds to my heavy burden and with the PP deadline rushing through soon, i am really in a rush. rushing against itme , rushing against the harsh reality

=(