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2009-06-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile since I dream about you; the all-so familiar looks/smile/vehicle.
yet all I could hear was your murmuring, I want more but I know it''ll never happen. Am I just seeking in your solace once again ?

the stress been piling up and I realized that because I been badly foul mouth lately, temper rising and it doesn't help with the humid weather. sometimes I feel myself as a SOB but yet people say I am too nice, too compliant.

adding in failing my tp test once again doesn't help at all. i know deep down i have somethings i wish to made known but i rather keep it as a small memory...... and it's never working well when you grow too attached to your working environment because the routine work, the daily challenge you faced and the life-reflection moments; things like this will be gone soon.

probably like most say; i need a long vacation. somewhere,someplace, somehow. ..

2009-05-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

Busy, yet boring. How contradicting. Just like how people contradicts at their statement of late.

The days are drawing nearing;
EPL ending and almost done and dusted.
So does the change of management. Something which I am not looking forward but inevitable.

Sometimes I just wished that certain things came earlier and so I still could done something 'bout it but who am I to kid, things gone will never reappear, unless miracle does exist.

I simply love my job, because the life learning experience never cease to enlighten me or stir the feelings in me, and sometimes I wished I could expressed it on the scene itself, but being a professional, I just have to learn to control.

It does amazes me that I am able to control myself despite all the stirring going on....

Updates

2009-05-15T19:06:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since I pen down my thoughts. There's always a limitations because I refuse to put up certain things.

1st issue: Officially failed my bike TP twice. Guess I am not destined. 3rd one's coming up soon.

2nd issue: 50% through in settling my post-ORD plans; which is heading to Uni for a 3.5-4 years studies. Left with my matriculation, and the most crucial of all; finding the all important cash of 30K ++. My plans most likely settled towards in working part time while studying, else hoping for bursaries coming along the way.

There's been a niggling feeling in my mind lately and I can't seem to shake it off easily. No definite problems.
I am lucky I was enlisted into the unit which was my dream career since young and I definitely enjoy the moment but people always told me NS and being a regular is different; which I beg to differ as I believe I can take up the additional works required. After all, who gets a no strings attached 1 year plus trial in a potential future career ? But now, being an undergrad soon, I just hope to clear my next 4 years smoothly and at the ripe age of 27 then, lets just hope things will be a smooth road. And I would not rule out a career in my NS vocation; if the fire in me is still burning.

2009-04-01T21:43:00.002+08:00

i am back, after a long hiatus; that is if anyone even bothered to read whats here.

its rather surreal that I am left with only 4 months of NS. pretty much around this time last year I was just barely leaving my training school for my posting.

currently left with less than 12 hrs to my much anticipated TP. hopefully its a one-time thing. also went for my interview, lets hope everything goes through smoothly.
Post-ORD planning is really stressful.

2008-12-12T12:25:00.002+08:00

i Swear; the next friend who submits my name and contact number to agencies, would get it.

one more call received from some yoga class place, ..

2008-11-22T12:45:00.002+08:00

it's amazing. this is me typing on my laptop which has gone past 4 years with me.
the original charger died right during my poly days and in between 2 more substitute charger died on too..

I had no choice but to lend my sis's friend original and when i was overjoyed it was compatible, it died in less than a month ! I was so sad yet pissed yet out of words.

BUT miracle happens ! suddenly, it worked back today and I promise I will cherished my charger .

Control.

2008-11-15T19:31:00.002+08:00

wake up from your dreams !!

Being a listening post is never good.
Why do I feel weird sometimes; a feeling that's sour yet bitter for no reasons.

2008-11-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

sometimes, I fail to understand myself; never knew how to put words into mouth when i want to show concern about people I really care for. Often a not, it seems restrictive for me to put across what I want to friends/family members. Silence seems the best way of concern for me towards this peoples.

finally got myself a haversack, been on my list for quite a while as an essential needs for me should I enter University; $149.60 seems hefty but I believe justifiable. Quality beats price tags. Anyway, its free for claim. Smart Buy.

2008-10-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

and so i am double2 now. 18 years old seems so far back already. and 10 months more to ORD.
future's being planned, but so far none has really materialized. still waiting for my SMU results as well as further applying for my NTU and NUS places. hopefully securing in either one.

just went for my va-va-voom practical today; and it sure wasn't vavavoom.
first lesson, 2 falls, bruised foot. landed quite badly. as such, re-lesson for prac1. seems like its gonna be a rough road until i learn to clutch and throttle properly. nonetheless, all the way !

pay rise to $70 more. *will $200 increment come? doing my best to get it*

and i realised how stubborn i can be nowadays.

Life's too short.

2008-09-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

When my late dad passed away, it was a shocker; cause he was only 55 and was pretty much a healthy person. It then made me realized that 24 hrs in a day was never enough and that when ever I am in that time frame, I should try to make full use of it. I do contradict, because in my inner self, I sill have my lazy soul.

Then recently, while flipping through my friend's pages, I thought what the text was meant that he was only very sick and was recovering. But never did I expect he had already passed away, at an age of only 21. Which he celebrated not long back. Though we weren't that really closed, but we did share some fun and memorable times back in poly classes. Still trying to see any where to get to his burial location, hopefully someone pops up the answer.

In loving memories to all that once been a part in my life. Stay healthy and cherish the times ahead.

In-Born

2008-09-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

Everyone was born differently; the way we look, behave or talents etc.
For me, somehow, I tend to be more sensitive than most people I would say. 'Cause sometimes it amazes me or others how much I know about certain things even though I was not physically involved. I've been wanting to type in certain things but it might seem inappropriate, but heck.Hiding it in is even worst.

H.A.Y. Three different letters, three different meanings.
H: Disappointment but still thankful for the times. Though nothing materialized.
A: Big mistake.Stupidity I would say.
Y: Released. Yeah, I finally did. You are smart, you do know what/who am I referring to.

I would wish to make it longer but sometimes I rather keep things more low key.

P.S. Arrangement are still in the progress, tentatively end of Nov; that is if my leave approved.

2008-08-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

Still the same old lazy brain.

Almost served my NS for 1 years and I must say time flies; especially with the hectic schedule I got (minus the "perks") that is. Tentatively, I have about 10 more months to go and plus/minus my leave's and working schedule, it basically means 4 months more of work only. Where did the 6 months go? Figure out yourself.

Been busy planning for post-NS and of course the main priority remains to continue studying. Added a new alternative to study and that is by distance learning although it may be a little be costly. Part-time or full-time that depends. Guess I should start flipping the Saturday's Recruit and see whats in the market nowadays should all plans fail. Contingency planning.

2008-08-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since i blogged. but wouldn't want to miss out on such a rare day, 08/08/08. In Chinese terms, this means luck ! and in triplicate.
always told myself, that people comments are a base for you to improve and that I should never even be bothered but sometimes, its just disturbing and it gets sickening.

2008-07-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

Road to recovery is well on the way ! Hopefully nothing pops up along the way.

Signed and sealed. Waiting for it to be delivered. Eagerly anticipating !

2008-06-29T14:37:00.002+08:00

One good deed does not get you noticed; it takes you many good deeds to get noted that you did something right.
But if you did something bad, it takes only split second to get you noted and be marked or what the norm says condemned.

Its like how human beings work, when you are flawed, its makes you less competitive as others. Be it physically, appearance etc. it does not require words to make known to yourself that you are one bar less the norm than others; their body language simply tells you that its better to back off.

Well, when you fall into such a pit hole, it's never easy to climb out as it requires tremendous efforts and a positive attitude to ride you out of the wave. But no matter what you do, you will know that things will never be the same and what best is to give you best smile and hoe pthings tide off soon; which in most case don't.

2008-06-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

This morning prior to work was splendid ! Rainy day, cool weather and amidst a wonderful sweet dream. Even the alarm ringing did not deter me from continuing dreaming.
Then tap! My mum woke me up from slumber land and back to real world, time to heard for work amidst a wet weather.

Even though it was just a sort 5 min dream, time had flew past tremendously fast in the real world and I must say this ! Everyday spent is another quality day wasted ! I need to start clearing my leave soon. I been "conned" from so many things that I am absolutely disheartened to fight for what's supposedly to my deserved. Now it all revolves education.

2008-05-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

its a very unlucky month. all I can say is that I am in shithole and lets hope the case rest soon.
though many have said I would tide through(as isn't caused by myself) still, I guess I would be cast from another view then on. and its happening already.

got rejected from NTU. but appealed. no reasons were given as only overwhelming application this year. i accept that reason being I am applying with the dragon boomers. nonethless, theres still June application period for SMU and next year's application for the local 3's. Hopefully I will get into one eventually. Any course that is too way side track would be fine. I just need the paper qualification anyway.

i must say serving my NS now is fun and different because I am more like working than serving for the sake of it. no doubt things are more extreme and demanding but still lets hope things just bend straight back yeah.

Something

2008-05-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

that not much people know is how much I fear of dog. Not the small ones but those barking,big dogs. yeah. also due to certain health restrictions, i don't try to get into contact with dogs or furry animals much.

nonetheless, I did something good! (no choice, bounded by duty and also wanted to make myself overcome it). I managed to escort a dog back to my HQ and left it there for SPCA to collect. A small puppy, quite tame and cute I must say. Wasn't very comfortable with it but nonetheless, managed to get it safely back.

So that was a first tiny step for me.I'll make use of this two years to overcome whatever things I feared before. I hope I do turn out for the better.

2008-04-24T12:06:00.002+08:00

How do you define bloodsuckers?

Define it by paying half of your bill owned for 4 months, and you still get your line cut off.
Just because you fail to pay the extra $50 + dollars.

How do you define boring?

Try sitting in a guard house, unable to go toilet as and when you like, and have to wait for people to send you food or visit you in order not to fall asleep.

Wonders of life.

Big Words, Small Size

2008-04-07T15:19:00.003+08:00

Just can't understand why some people like to use their seniority/rank to show authority. Just that you are on verge of making one step up and thus making you one of the high flyer's doesn't rectify that f*** up attitude.
I am one who doesn't voice out much because work is always work and I respect the fact when a senior talks to me. But some people just like to push their luck further and when I answer back, they keep quiet like some mouse.

No doubt I am doing this for national service and yours as a career but what we are working on are common job scopes; just that you draw a higher pay then me. And to think of it, some of you just like to use us to cover your asses when shit happens. That's why things aren't that glorious as it seems on advertisement.

April Fool is Poor Man's Gold

2008-04-04T22:27:00.003+08:00

If April 1 weren't on the actual day, it would probably would have came twice for me this year.
Back in KL(on my mini-break), met up with my friend's friend. And that I don't know what gave him the impression but he says that I am a player!
As if my acne face was gone for that day. One joke it must has been ah?
The second time was just last week. My team leader was on routine visit and the same was said from his mouth! He said I was a typical player and that I must cheated girls frequently. I swear at the point I was laughing in my heart!
Ever since I started shift work, my body totally messed up and my face went the same direction. To add in the woes, my eye bag grown too! Hell, I wonder what give this people the impression.
I must say things are getting better lately!
Having fun with work, being more cheerful, almost relating everything I read on news to anything under the sun. But still, school days are still the best; days of innocence filled with nonsensical fun!

Places.

2008-03-25T21:15:00.005+08:00

Successfully passed my first phase of conditioning period. From day to day life, to weired morning-night shift days.

Every ending night shift would be the same; sleep till late evening and have a massive brunchnner(breakfast + lunch + dinner). The next off day would be spent at home slacking or else depending whats up. I do miss my days back at tracom. Despite getting into stupid discipline problems, I know that we get punish as a squad and the punishment were never 'capital'.
Being in the force for this short period, I have seen fair shares of boot-lickers and back-stabbers. Must say that they would be the best actor if there were an award for them.

Who say work was all boring and never fun? Well, still managed to squeeze fun out of boredom ;p.
Some random pictures of places I would not believe if I had not seen it myself.

12 + 12 = 24 ?

2008-03-09T21:52:00.002+08:00

Just finished my 12 hrs per day shift. 2 days, 2 different time frames.
The first night shift was not that bad. Just that by the 3rd quarter of it, my eyes were closing by itself subconsciously.
Well, it takes time to condition. Hopefully, it will be different in the next few weeks of work.

I must say things are getting pretty interesting lately as I have been treated to loads of eye opening stuff. Oh well, still got loads of stuff to see and learn in the next year or so.

10 months before Christmas

2008-02-25T21:08:00.005+08:00

G stands for Golf. Which is where my division duties cover.
G also apparently stand for the place where I would be 90% be working for the next year or so till ORD.

I really hope to be where the thick of actions is and not be bounded by a desk with cold air blowing. But then again, sometimes life doesn't work that where. You are asked to do; you better do. No compromise.

On my last night staying in TRACOM; Lunar Eclipse. Not that clear but do-able la. haha

Lastly, Happy 12th year old Bro ! =p

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

It's the day of the year again; Chinese New Year !
Where kids all look forward to long holidays, Ang Baos and tons of snacks! Haha, sadly I am no longer a kid.
Hitting the double 2's pretty soon and looking at all the students and teenagers out there, dressed in new year clothings, and happy face, just make me reminiscence back my childhood days.
Have to admit, I am feeling the toll of growing up.

Don't have any pictures update though; so until then, plain words and bear first !

Judgement

2008-02-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

My judgment has always been rather spot on.
But it's always me not being aggressive or decisive enough thus losing the things I chose.
Life's all about judgment ain't it?

And so the journey restarts.

2008-01-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

I am back to camp!
1 month of in-camp training. Living in a new coy, with new squad mates and new things to learn.
Familiar taste of the mass food, morning flag rising and 28 more days of boring endless nights with new peeps. Hope it's not that bad.

Only concern is people who break rules without thinking of other people. I hope it will be a trouble-free month and be a successful one. A new journey awaits.

Endured and lived through 3 months of training. Whats 1 more month of only studies and possible punishment be? *crosses finger*

Impromptu Update

2008-01-25T17:28:00.000+08:00

So I have finally, P.O.P. So what's next for me ?
Well, I got into NPC/SO.
Which means I would be the person sitting at the front desk attending to complainant I guess. Kinda ups-downs about the posting but what to do; suck it up lo.
I'll be having in-camp training for one month + 2 weeks attachment ( beats me ). Then officially
working in my division. Its gonna be a rough and year ahead and I really cross my fingers that life would change for better and I would learn more outside.

Meanwhile, I'll just update up on the things I have done over the past month or so.

First up, Trip to JB. Went down on a weekend for some shop around + seafood hunting.
Damage for the trip: RM 72

The bunch of people.

Hungry ghost literally we are. Went for lunch at a local food stall. Had this.

Roasted Pork,Char Siew ; Herbal Roasted Duck.
In between lunch to dinner, we went for movie, desert at Secret Recipes and walk-around the mall. Then we head down to this food stall somewhere in JB.

After the trip, we basically were marching and preparing drills for the next 2 weeks in preparation of our POP. Heaven was on our side as on the actual day, it was cloudy and cooling.=)

POP --- O !

We were given almost 1 week off totally but we had to report back just to return logistic and administration stuffs. That's when I got my posting *shucks*
Nonetheless, the next day I went off for my 3D2N trip to KL with my squad mates.
Damage done to wallet : RM 310 (excluding hotel expenses)
Pictures will be up soon.

On the Verge

2007-12-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 years since your passing on; and it's been almost that long that I have ever broke down because of it.

But recently, I broke down twice in a week and in all place in camp. Shown a side rarely seen by people who are not close to myself personally.
That reason aside, I been putting a lot of undue stress on myself due to my performance in camp. Somehow, I am marred by the fact I am not performing up to my own standards. Postings to unit will be out in 2 weeks and with my recent results, I am fearing for the worst already. Hopefully, I would be able to serve the rest of my NS usefully.

Simple to put, I am now on the edge of cliff.

Countdown

2007-12-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

Oh well, Santa beens fairly kind to me.

Passed my PDT and law test.

Shooting, had to shoot 3 frames. Managed to get a First class for my fifth frame yet fail my Final one !

Problems with the danm thing and poor confidence. Oh, hope getting a pass at re shoot hopefully.

Final Dash

2007-12-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

The fact that I am typing this post shouldn't exist even !

Oh well, Merry Christmas to fellow friends, colleagues or whoever visit this cobweb.
My blog hasn't been the nicest to visit because it's mostly text and no pictures. They will come soon, I promise.

This weeks marks the 'final' week of my NS life ! *that is provided I pass the upcoming tests*

I got PDT, law, and shooting test coming up and only 1 am I being confident of; law, surprisingly.
I have been saying this lately that I will be O.O.C soon because my confident is at it lowest now.

PDT; have been marked by the instructor since day 1. technically, i suck at this kind of stuff.
Shooting; 54 of it never made it into the target board, out of 125. Perfect eh.
Law; first few test were never passed. Till lately, passing is a norm thought I am a little more ambitious.

After this turbulence week, it would be probably be 2 to 3 weeks of drills and free and easy schedule before I get to know where I will be posted. Oh well, wish me luck Santa. I know I have been a good guy this year round ;).

Transistion

2007-12-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

Simple Genius.

I should consider a career change. Sheer determination plus luck.

2007-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

EMO.

I can be on cloud 9 one moment, and look gloomy the next.
I just simple feel that among the chains, I am the weakest link. Yearning for that empty void to be filled for a long time, yet nothing could be done by me. Not even to clear up my biggest doubts and question mark.

COMPLAINTS

By virtue, I am serving what is most people say the slackest form of national service.
Even so, having a bad mental block as test are coming up with me not being much confident about.

THOUGHTS

I should simply cut off my two dangling balls and don a skirt better.

hours b4 book in

2007-11-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

I am just hours away from booking-in. The next week 2 weeks is supposedly to be more relax due to events. Hopefully so.

still thinking about my vocation and hopefully get into an experiential one.
been having problems with my shoulder and throat lately. one being an injury sustain from training and the latter being "heaty" and also the supposedly haze. It been really freaking cold lately especially when you wake up at 5 a.m in the morning.

Weekends are always short now and I cherish my times spent with family and friends. The feeling is warmth and loving.

2007-11-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

my squad mates say they when they first knew me in camp, i looked down to earth and nerdy.
1 months on, they say they see the other side of me; just keeps me wondering.
i have to agree i am a cold to warm person. it takes a long time to know me or make me open up because its not easy for me to trust a person.

looking nerdy, can't help, black square rimmed specs with short botak hairstyle. inevitable. i just hope results will overcome appearance. seriously, i am not really confident about the way i present myself or work out in the camp. i tend to sit back and be more reserve and somehow it all backfired. i just want to be ordinary.

a lot more skills and drills will be tested and this are things which are not my forte. just grinding hard and hope for the best. guess i am not that strong a person i perceive myself as. but one principle of my own; never giving up till you tried, not just the 100 % but also the extra 5 %.

strive and work hard inner me, you have overcome countless hurdles and this pains are just extras.

reflections

2007-10-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

3 weeks have gone swiftly.
prior i thought it would change my life in a new direction. not really.

instead, it made me think even more of the upcoming years. its going to be a long yet short 2 years experience and I hope it would really change my perspective on a lot of things.

i feel i am mentally stronger now as I tend to give up only at the slightest hint of warning sign either from my body or mental. i am even amazed that i am still hanging by that loose piece of thread like some bloody loser.i don't even know why i am doing this but please at least reciprocate me with some answers. i fell like i am always being taken for granted and still pretend that everything oks yet still continue helping you on. i guess that's the reason why i feel empty sleeping every night.

also, i did some of my first few things in my life. my first blood donation ! prior had friends who asked me to go for it; was always thinking that I would faint at the process. But I was totally wrong ! except the minor prick , it was a simple yet fun process. Felt totally happy after the donation. (side note: i was "forced" to go by my officer )

2007-10-14T18:52:00.000+08:00

danm tired. sleepy and feeling badly grouchy.

my Sony Ericsson phone died on me. OFFICIALLY. White Screen Of Death they call.
I lost most of my contacts and is f**king pissed. Reckon about 50 over contacts gone together with some photos and files.

Using spare phone for the moment. Probably getting a new one after army. So much so for my first book out. F***king Suay.

2007-10-13T18:51:00.000+08:00

after countless of try, my blogger is back !

back from book out. life in there is all about DISCIPLINE. strict time regime, strict diet.
unlike other service, we are lucky to have only IPPT and PSOC as the only demanding trainings in it. other than that are relatively follow throughs lesson and drills.

pretty tired actually, certain time my eyes start turning blurry. spent almost $100 + on army related stuff.

my h.p went into white screen death and have to be fixed at a very crappy cost of $100 +++ . decide to forego and probably get a 2nd hp first, whilst serving army.

Countdown Begins

2007-09-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

9/8/2007. 2 years. Loving Memories.

I am officially out of job. After a rather long sting being a part time teacher/trainer, I would say I have learn a lot and experienced lots.

Another 5 weeks, I would into another long stint of mine: NS.

So meanwhile, time spent to keep fit and enjoy life

Updates VII

2007-08-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

haven been updating because I have been rather busy.

shorter hours of sleep with working long shift over the past few weeks.
it's nearing to 1 month left of civilian life for me.

lately been hanging out with a lot of kids due to my working commitments and social life.
it's just surprising I can hold a conversation well with some of my students
whilst also talking about daily life with younger peers.

Sometimes you gain insights to the younger ones school life and you reminiscence against your days as a secondary school student.But @ the same time, you might feel their thinkings are a little short and naive.

Talking to my colleagues and buddies, I get kicked back into the harsh reality that educational level, personal gromming, financial status is very important nowadays. How you wish the days of scheduled lifestyle and naitivity were still there; carefree and youthful.

Nonetheless, stuck between both worlds, I learn a lot more stuffs and I am glad that they gain insights too.

Relieved Wallet, Revived EPL

2007-08-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

When a person is low on cash, survival is endangered.
So when money was given, a sigh of relief can be heard.

I got this freaking pimple in my eyelid that been staying there for a week plus already.
To cover it, I have to wear my glasses to cover up. Which of course, may make me more dependent on glasses.

EPL season is starting and things are going off in a bang ! Watched 2 matches and must say its an exciting season to come.
Too bad; come Oct, I will cancel it off due to the freaking hike in price.

Relight My Fire

2007-08-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

I am so so so tired of the life I am leading now.
It's either work or slack.

I badly wants to enter my NS soon and start afresh.

I lack a spark to re-ignite the waning flame in me.

I got more assignments, and now more responsibilities. I don't think I am that good enough.
But nonetheless, I will put in all my effort to get things work out.

And yeah, I passed my final lifesaving test ! Working on my coaching license next and probably work on my lifesaving skills too.

Comments

2007-07-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

The fact that I have to go to work everyday to face my students is already a daunting task.
Everyday is a new challenge and everyday I wonder, how am I suppose to carry out my lessons in a more fun yet understandable way.
I'm not one who scolds people and people who known me over the years should know I seldom flare up for no reasons. But because of my job, I have to shout and look fierce. But its just doesn't seem to be that way always as only the younger ones will be scared.

To further confirm this, students feed back to me as being : "soft-looking, easy to ride over"
and further comments from teachers within the school ? : " boring. "
i did not get this off mouth but from words. and its easy to find things pointing to you.

well, to have such comments surely give me pain as I value peoples feedback and comments. From there, I try to change and learn; but teaching? its takes experience and better training. Somethings are born to be and some are not. Well, teaching is one I guess for me.

I think that schools nowadays are cramming students with too much extra classes after school and the fact they neglect that interest are not build over a day and things like robotics is definitely not one thing that people will like straight away. I think they should make it an optional one so as those who are interested can learn in a more conducive environment; thus not wasting my time to teach and at least it makes my job easier.

Well tomorrow's my last lesson in that school for robotics and hope that I will only leave with fun memories of students who are willing to listen to me attentively, even for just 1 minutes of my "BORING" lesson.

2007-07-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

after 2 wks of "enlistment" my comp is back from FUJITSU platoon SERVICE 1
due to poor fitness, it had to go for a thorough hardware test.
failed fan, keyboard, a/c port and broken hinge were mentioned. but only two were rectified as budget was low.
hope Private Laptop-Always-Problem wont have to report back camp soon.

been really busy running around my working schedules and also using $$ like water.

food,transportation, etc is costing a "bomb" with the recent hike in GST

there's sort of uneasy feeling around me lately. i dunno why but i feel jumpy and stressful nowadays. lot to think about.
escape is not an option it seems. it the oh-i-am-still-feeling that feeling that slowly moved back. i probably should have stuck firm and not be lenient.

like what my students and boss said: " soft, not strict, no firm stand "
my face just can't portray anger/fierceness and thats probably why people are riding over my head all the time.
2 and 1/2 mths more to army and i am really looking forward to it.

i still try to find out here and there about your life but its just only a way to tell myself you are safe.

2007-06-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

I caught a rainbow while returning home last Friday. Second time in my life to have seen one personally. How I hope everyday would be as colorful as the rainbow =)

Urge

2007-06-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

Don't get me wrong.. but
I just got to urge to blog now.

The urge to indulge in food, life and everything else.
Sometimes, we get too carried away working that we neglect people around us.

From now till Oct, there would be lots of changes as many of my friends and later on myself, would embark on a new life path. Hope fun awaits us and not torture.

Been busy working on some stuff while juggling my time;
slacking away at kopitiam/mcD for talking session;
going through my daily exercise routine;
and not neglecting, spending time with my family for early breakfast on weekends.

I must say that the TV shows shown on t.v recently has been quite good and makes me sit-up and really watch it.
But whilst the plot is engaging, it's still the actresses that glue me to the show . haha
Looking forward to start work again, earning money and enjoy life till the dawn of the new path.

back to school part 3

2007-05-29T21:56:00.001+08:00

The holidays just started for the local schools thus signaling the start of a short break for my current job. The last and foremost assignment I had was to assist in doing 3D animation which I am pretty much not competent in doing. And to learn a new 3D program from scratch in a short period is not easy. But luckily, 1 semester of laggy Maya usage has taught me patience and much of the basic of modeling and animation.
Thus I went to learn from my colleague on this software called Cinema 4d which is said to have been used to create the movie Polar Express. So we went through the software and one of the objects the student had to create was a basic wine glass. I did mine at home and after a few hours of re-modeling and tweaking, I got mine out. Pretty satisfied with it but more could be done of course. But I would just say the program is very memory-efficient( i can multi-task quite a few programs without much problems ).

Wine Glass

Bullies

2007-05-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

http://www.kukujiao.com/2006/09/24/damai-dota-assault

first i would like to say, seeing this video makes me disgust.

picking up on people just because you are older, and outnumbering them.
seriously, you bullies should get a fucking life. sometimes i am just wondering what are kids nowadays thinking.

how i think back about the time where i grew up in the early 90's. the years i was born and later studied were between the transitions year of 80's to 90's. We played things like marbles, chapteh, hopscotch etc.
computers and anything techie was a luxury then. but at least life was much simpler and we cherish the things presented to us.

anyways, my life is in my own transitions too. i just dunno where things might just go wrong anytime.. they might..

BloG

2007-05-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

a blog is suppose to be a place where you vent your daily rants and raves
but as it is open to public, it becomes restricted.

I have been making wrong decisions lately and sometimes I wonder is it me being too easily persuaded or being too hard-hearted.

I have always a problems communicating around strangers but RP changed all that.
it forces me to engage in more conversations with people and help me widen my range of social network.
this has help me as it opened a lot of opportunities for myself. but even so, I still am a rather introvert guy and it takes a few days to crack me up. I guess this is the reason you-know-what from being happened.

I feel like isolating myself away from my life for week or so and learn to experience new things because life in Singapore is too fast paced. A few hours just slipped through you just by sitting down watching TV or doing nothing. I guess thats the reason why people aged so fast.

Everyday, I am constantly reflecting on stuffs and learning from it but so far, I can say I have only managed to change 5 % of it because some facts never change and that only when spoken do you feel enlightened.

Its not easy to say out your feelings. Neither is it easy for you to display your emotions.

classified files 123

2007-05-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

A start that never started.
A hurt that hurts so bad.
Though the hurt was superficial,
I still can't seem to start forgetting.

Reluctancy and Life

2007-05-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be a f***ing long post. *explicit content attached within*

Last month, I did some stupid experiment and did one more with another food stall. The result?
Shocking.

The one I did last month. Bunch of gray fungi?

The one I had on 12/4 Thursday from a certain stall in Singapore.

I just took this 5 mins ago. Perfect and exactly the same. Almost a month.

Conclusion? The fries I ate should be somewhere in the sewer or as ashes by now. =)

Well, it's already May and almost 3 months seems I graduated.

Most of us have received the letter for enlistment and June, July batches made up the majority.
I must say the enlistment thing gave me a big headache. It was like planning to take a trip to Malaysia via Causeway but due to some unforeseen circumstances, you got to go by the 2nd link.
After receiving my notice on enlistment with PA, I have been making several inquiries to the CMPB and SPF with regarding to signing-on(salary, min. terms of engagement etc.)

I must say SPF hot line totally sucks. I made 5 calls to them and I never had a chance to speak to their customer officer. It doesn't matter that if they were busy, but over a period of 3 days and non going through? Thats bullshit.
An extract of the conversation I had with the answering machine

*me keying in the number on my hp

ring,ring,ring,ring,ring,ring,ring

"Welcome to SPF career hotline; For english: Press 1, For Chinese : Press 2"

*and so i proceeded on with all the crappy instructions. Listened to a 3 minutes mandatory message and continued for the option of speaking to the officer.

And so I waited and the first message recived:

"Our customer officer are busy at the moment, please hold while we connect you"

It continued for the second time:

"Our customer officer are still busy at the moment, please hold while we connect you"

And finally:

"Our customer officer are still busy at the moment, thank you for calling and have a nice day"

*PHONE HUNG UP ..........................*

!@$!%$^$#@%$@!
that was my first reaction. And for the 3 days I tried calling at different interval, it all ended the same way.

Well, I shall not call them anymore.
I found out most of the stuff I wanted and after weighing the following options :

Min. Terms of Engagement: 5 years(inclusive 2 year NS)
Within the 5 years, paid as non-ns men pay.
Class 3- license.
No lump sum bonus.
I cannot jump from PA to Army Officer because skill sets differs. Which means I cannot pursue any career within the army side in my life.

Total amount earned +/- : $110 k

Sounds a lot but if I ORD and come out find a FT job, I believe the pay would be higher and I would have lots more freedom. (e.g part time study, part time work)
So conclusion? 2 years and out I come as a free man.

Ok. After whines, let me get on with my daily life updates.

For you Cedric. Haha.

My supper. Mee Goreng, Honey Ham and Egg. Cabbage Soup and Pepsi.

My after dinner snack. BlackForest Cheesecake.

My indulgence lately. Honey-baked ham, Apple Ham.
2 packet each of DARS and Hershey dark Chocolate.

Ad-Hoc BBQ 29/04/07.

I am currently playing this two game. Thanks to Weng Tat. Haha.
At least I am not playing for FM for awhile. =o

Fairy God Mother

Well, thats my unproductive up and down life for the past 2 weeks.
Having fun working and enjoying life. Not forgetting, keeping myself prepared for enlistment day.

Cheers !!

2007-05-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning

You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.
You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights.
A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way.

In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit.

While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.
You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.
Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

-unknown-

2007-04-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

The weather's been blowing hot and cold. So am I.

Each dream seems surreal and so far, 2 out the 3 was sweet. The latter was angst and nervous.

Work has been good. Finished 2 school's assignment and left with 1 more to go. Probably working till Sept.
Well, I received my NS letter already; 9-10-2007 POLICE ACADEMY.

Want to post pictures but just not in the mood right now. I need time.

Short Trip to Malaysia

2007-04-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

Went back to Malaysia(Gemas, Johor) to clean tomb. Its a traditional Chinese custom and I did one for back in Singapore a week back.
This time was for my great-grandparents and grandparents. I swear to you being B+ blood is danm bad. The first trip ended up with 7 mosquito bites. Luckily the other tombs were in a better condition and except for a dog barking, nothings much already. The tombs there are not as neatly arranged as in Singapore and I swear finding the tomb of my great-grandparents was like doing a mini hike up a slope of tombs.
Then we headed up to KL, Sepang track where my cousin's boyfriend had paid for a 3 hrs free-race on the circuit itself. On route, we stop by for lunch which was horrendous. Not all Ramli burgers are nice.
Was my first time on Sepang track and we were watching in the pit lane area. Totally amazed by those sports car. Saw a car that was tuning up for race day. The total modifications for it was $1.2 million.
Then saw a Singapore and Malaysian WRX on race track. The Singapore one had a better machine but the Malaysian one was not much far from its specifications. I reckon both was hitting around 250 -280 km/hr when hitting the straight track(the m'sia one took 4.7 seconds to pass the straight track). The engine sound produced was awesome and sharp.
Didn't know the car can be tuned to different specifications for different track racing and just the engine department is sophisticated for the amateurs like myself.
Also managed to see an A1 race car on test run and the sound was sharp!
After the runs on the track, we head back for Singapore and had A&W for dinner. Not filling but taste not bad. It's been ages since I last had it(10-12 years ago). The price was still as expensive as last time.
A regular EVM would set you back RM8 dollars.(think in terms of the local currency and not exchange rate)
Memories flushed back as I head back to my dad's hometown. The place had minor changes but the place and atmosphere's still the same. The quiet little town filled with heartwarming town folks. A place where I spent my childhood holidays with my family and my great grandparents. I guess as I grow older, I might just bring my kids back to this place and live a day or two of local towns folk =)

The Pit Lane

The Straight Track(Spectator View)

A&W with RootBeer Float

2007-04-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night!
You prefer to be out and about when most other people are.
Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing.
You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

2007-04-14T04:27:00.000+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Back to School Pt 2

2007-04-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

I have been teaching for almost 3 weeks and must said the experience was really enriching.
A valuable experience but I still want my pay ! waiting for the assignments to finish.

When I was first assigned to a certain Primary School, I went to check out the school's address and website. By chance, I saw a female teacher who looked and named exactly as my primary school teacher. Her salutations had changed from Mrs. to Mdm. But not doubt she was the same person who taught me 15 years ago.

And by chance, I have finally met her! At first, we walked past each other and somehow she felt familiar to me. A hunch told me to turn back and call her. And surprisingly, she turned back to!
We chatted for awhile and she vaguely remembers me. But no doubt she was the same teacher who taught me back in pre-primary.

pre-primary was the equivalent of K2 back then. Just that we spent it in Primary School.
Sadly, the program was scrapped off right after my batch as some parents felt it was useless.

Went to have dinner yesterday at Botak Jones. Big portion indeed(fries a lot) but meat was pretty small. The taste was normal and yeah, quite full though. A new experiment is being done and make sure you follow up in my blog to see the results!

if it ain't certified by yy, the fries ain't safe.

No offense but the follow are random pictures. Its either you are a guy named Ong or a couple are you entitled to rent the flat. lol

2007-04-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

yes,no, maybe

the words that only move through my mind now.

Myths about Fries

2007-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

Watch this video first.
Well after watching this, my taste for fries took a second thought. Nonetheless, I still ordered a set of EVM to eat last Sunday.
Since I had a bottle and fries at hand, why not experiment?

*warning* the following pictures may cause traumatic fears in certain individuals. Be warned!

Nice and innocent looking. *slurps

Stressing over specks of white hairs!

Lung infection with black spots.

So there you have it. It's your choice now. I am still loving my fries and those budget, quick to finish in 15 minutes delicious meal =)

2007-04-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations.

Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.

Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.

Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-04-01T20:19:00.001+08:00

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

Mythbusting

2007-03-29T11:46:00.000+08:00

Myths:
Taking gym supplements like mass gainer makes me muscular.

Facts:
That's a totally wrong thinking. Taking mass gainer only builds up mass in your body which are know commonly as fats. This is due to the high content of carbohydrates and protein.
With this, you hit the gym to burn off them and get the muscles. They do not just pop out because you take supplements! Everyone has an abs, but they do not show as it covered in fats. Thats why people do crunches. The same theory applies.

Myths:
Gym supplements are expensive.

Facts:

Depending on what are you taking, this is true to only a certain extent.
Mass gainer for one is something affordable and convenient product I would say.
People say eating more egg whites and carbohydrate stuff like bread,rice,pasta gain faster in terms of mass.
This is true but how many of us has the time to fix such a meal everyday?
And besides, add up the total cost of the foods above, you probably be spending about 100+ dollars plus some invaluable time that you could have saved up.
So there we have mass gainer. All the contents from there but takes less than 2 minutes to prepare. All you need is a shaker bottle, water and add in the powder.
Definitely convenient.

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2007-03-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Influence and Jokes

2007-03-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

Batman and Robin.
Robin needs a hand badly and he says: "Into the bat cave!" haha

Dunno is it the tap-water I drank in Marina Square.
Had no problems drinking those offered at public pool toilets.

Or the tasty-creamy iced chocolate mint served at this certain singer-tavern place.

Or lastly, the evil concoction of Fried Prawn Noodles,Hao Jian(Fried Oyster Egg), Carrot Cake and Satay.

I sat in toilet for 45 minutes straight and from start, it was water state and by the end of it, it was as thick and smooth as cream. For the first time, I seriously felt the vessels around my stomach pumping hard. Imagine the sufferings I had to tahan just to get the last train till my home, a solid time of 35 minutes.

Fuck I just hate this stomach problems. I lost about 1kg the last time I had it real bad.
I need more carbohydrate and proteins !

Had a full day of lessons to went to for today. I can safely say I am a part time teacher now?
The first half of the day's was assisting the students of this certain school. 4 lessons with 30 mins break in between.
Then taught my own class on Chinese Input. Had to shout and project my voice as this kids are darn irritating and monkey ass. One of this kid was bullying this girl and his face totally changed when I said I was asking a teacher to come down. Haha.
Then went on to assist another class to round off the day.

Imparting our knowledge to the younger ones for a better tomorrow. =)

Case Closed.

2007-03-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

I finally solve the knot !! No more. Never will be.

I want to make my life a better one and nothing is better than without any commitments.

Money, maturing, moving towards a successful future.

IQ

2007-03-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

What's Your Personality Type ?

2007-03-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Fate, Luck and Personal Assessment

2007-03-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

Wishful, plain wishful..... First in the queue? Unlikely........

I would say that what has happened to me during my life mostly revolves around fate and luck.

By luck, I got into N(A) stream of a good school in my neighborhood.
By luck, I got into a Polytechnic with only 3 credit passes to my 'O' levels.
By luck, I understand that what you see from the outer shell of a person does not define his character. Humans are shallow. I'm not to be spared.

By fate, I met some wonderful friends around me.
By fate, some special people left some wonderful memories in my life while others just walk off without a trace.

I dare to say I fought for what I achieve over the years but many of them were opportunities created by people and I just merely took it by the hand and make full use of it.

In job application form, there would usually be a section of personal assessment. It would probably ask for an assessment of your own strengths and weakness.
This would be probably be what I would write:

Strengths:

Team player
Analytic
Willing to learn

Weakness:

Indecisive
Non-aggressive approach

I know I left somethings off my hook due to my decisions of dwelling for a better opportunity. In the end, I lost out but luckily I still kept something valuable from it; friendship. But for some, I wasn't so lucky; I lost both.

I think that if you really love your parents or someone special in your life, don't miss the chance to say that you love them because once they are gone, its never going to come back. Never a chance will that 3 letter sentence be able to translate into happiness again.

Back to School Once Again

2007-03-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

Just started on a job Victor recommended me; as an IT trainer. Basically, the job scope is to train students on software skills as per required by the schools the company is attached with.

It's been 3 years since I last sat in a secondary school environment and memories does flows back. 3 years down the road, Secondary school students are still structured the way they are just like back then.

Girls in short skirts, the nerdy ones, the act-cool ones, the boyish-always-populars with girls one etc.
And entering the computer lab filled with students simply reminds me of me back then. A blur nerdy looking guy, trying to learn the software attentively. And being in the position of being a assistant teacher, I finally realized how much authority a teacher holds.

One incident I had:
"cher, can I go to the toilet? Do i have to give you my student pass?"

haha, I was amused but just "shoo" him off to the toilet.

40:17 was all it needed for the flutters to stay in my stomach for 24/7.
Wishful or hopeful? Confused yet bemused..

Graduation

2007-03-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

This is probably a belated Graduation post.
Finally a diploma graduate despite all the obstacles along the way.Definitely not easy but I have managed to do so.

What's next for me ?

Short term: Get a part-time job.
Mid term: Finished up NS and get into University
Long term: Get a good paid job, get married and retire by 50?

Haha. Just a rough gauge but I know life now will be tough.
From M(18) to R(21). The transition was long but it was all worth it.

Dolphin Massacres

2007-03-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

Due to the content of this video, viewer discretion is advised.
Fuck the fuckers who are involved in the project.

Dinner and Dance

2007-03-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night were suppose to be D&D. Without the dance though. Despite all the publicity and things, it was pretty much of a letdown. I just did a last minute buying of shirt and shoes and went for the thing. Pretty hectic.
After the thing, we went for supper and drink. Was getting pretty much mad around the dance floor and its been awhile since I last touched alcohol. Not too bad I guess.

Sometimes I just wonder why do I conceal my feelings so well. Pretend as I may, I know I'll never pass my own stage. It's more and more checkpoints at each stage. I know at this checkpoints, I will never be able to answer all the questions poised.
With regards to my last post, it was a rather harsh but I had to. The person I would least expect to pull such a move on me did so. I ignore rumors about it, but it still happened. Well, its all the past now. Looking forward to a new chapter in my life; army.
It's going to be a short one but I will always flip back to the older chapters of life. People who have helped, met, acquainted, shared,played,advised, encouraged me along the way will never be forgotten and I will try my best to keep in contact with as many as I could.

fucking piece of random post

2007-03-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

fucking sick of humans who treat you like god when they needed you
and dumping you like trash when they don't

fucking sick of humans who says you are their good friend/buddy/gossip partner when they are still trying to build up their social network and pretend they don't know you when they are "popular"

fucking sick of humans who don't contact you for many years but tries to mingle with you as though you have been contacting all along when you have perks/social status that they can use

ask yourself how many people you can trust in this world?

tried to get jobs but it seems the agent can't get into head what job I want.
The latest offering?
"Hey, can you fix hand phones ?"
No offense to people doing that trade but the job she's recommending are going down my study level. Damn it.

qwaszx

2007-03-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Curiosity kills the cat.
I am one such cat.

I hate to find out things by myself that eventually hurt me or piss me off.
Why people don't think before they do something behind someone's back?
Eventually when people found out what happens, its either they get pissed or get hurt.

Move on or stay put? My wheels are ready to move on but my engine won't start.

March already. Results out. Able to graduate.
No work. No enlistment letter. No life.

200th post

2007-02-26T12:26:00.000+08:00

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world." "If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you its yours. if it doesn't, it never was."

I was blog hopping and came by this blog which had this quote. It's beautiful and soothing.
It's like in a relationship.
A guy breaks up with girl. The girl's want him still. She may kept his body but not his heart.
Why not let it go and if his heart's with you, he will come back for you?

Arsenal's loss over Chelsea was a pity. Drogba not doubt is a killer striker with instinctive predator sense. But credits to Arsenal youngster. They have loads of chance to seal the game in the first half but only one came through. Theo Walcott's goal is a beauty.
And Fabregas getting thrown by Celery sticks ? That's funny and crap.
And in the end? fights, 3 reds 2 yellow.
Kudos to Arsenal's youngsters and "congrats" to the Roman Empire.

Movies : The Departed

Not recommended for kids. 75 % of the show is filled with fuck.
And the script writer make full use of the word. In different tense, phrases etc.

Example:

Actor A:Fuck yourself
Actor B: I am tired of fucking your wife.
Actor A: Hows your mother?
Actor B: Good, she's tired of fucking my father.

The storyline was confusing and had this concept of a spy in a spy. Kinda hard to describe in words. So watch it yourself to know better.

So who said confusing storyline and draggy plots were a downfall of good movie?

Movies/ TV series

2007-02-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

Been watching English TV series recently
The most notable are:

Prison Break ( currently watching Season2 )
Heroes
Supernatural

Didn't chase much of this earlier on but it seems I am hooked to them. Interesting and revolving story lines just makes you want to keep watching.

Movies :

Babel(a confusion of voices and other sounds )
2 hr 15 minutes long.

I went to search for the definition of the word after I watched 15 minutes into it.At least 50 % of the show were alien language to me. I guess that's what the Director wanted the audience to feel as per to why they name it that way.

Slowly as the show goes, you will realize whats is happening and somewhat, the language you are listening are not important anymore. Just concentrate on the actors/actress emotions and acting portrayed and the story line falls right back in place. There were a few small details spoken in alien language but I manged to understand through the synopsis I read later on.

Hopefully it will be subtitled and I can better understand the show.I don't mind watching it again. Haha.

Norbit

Another Eddie Murphy Classic. Multiple Character portrayal with just one actor. I am just baffled at how they put the same people in the same scene. The most interesting one was he morphing himself to a Chinese old man. It got me searching the internet for clips on it and the make up sure look pretty long.
A good laugh for your money.

Ghost Rider

Somehow, it's one of the top box office hits this year. Why so? I am totally baffled too. The story is very dull and at the end of the show, I only managed to say : "Huh, finished? " I guess its rated highly for the CG and effects done. really amazing stuff . And the credits part, a list of animators and visual effects people. Now I understand why films cost millions beside the cast and location side.

Well, its reaching March and I have been officially out of job for 3 months. Time to start digging hard else my wallets gonna burn another danm big hole with my heavy food eating habits.

New Year

2007-02-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

Well we know it's 2007 already. But today's the official Chinese year of Pig ! *oinks

haha. well, for reunion we went to my uncle house for a simple fare of food and gathering. As usual, the food includes curry chicken, noodles, rice, can-abalone with broccoli etc. Oh yeah, and also Golden Pillow (chicken and mutton version)

I know I seldom post picture on my blog. But this is something I really like to post up.

haha notice the bottom Box and the Chocolate. The stuffs just get more and more real ain it ? =p

Post-Graduate

2007-02-16T03:51:00.000+08:00

Went back to school on Monday for Miss. Ting birthday. Though she taught me for only 1 semester, she somehow still remember me and my name. Haha. (she can't remember surnames though)
Really appreciated for helping me ask around with regards to my 'o' levels. =o

Chinese New Year really sucks bad that time this year round. Totally no mood and it will be one of the few years which was not celebrated with my relatives back in Malaysia. But oh wells, just stay in in Singapore and watch those movies. haha. probably just house-hops if there is to be.

So job-hunting, slacking, swimming and exercise will fill up the rest of my days till enlistments.

End of School Life

2007-02-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

Well, I officially finished my school term in RP.
Though I have cleared all my stuff properly to have a safe graduation but now my future lingers in the balance. I have not cleared my 'O' levels Maths despite many attempts. Submitted my appeals and results so now is to pray that the school is lenient enough.

As we grow older, our health deteriorates faster. I feel tired and sleepy easily, which brings down my mood for anything in the day. Hopefully that would change when NS comes. Regular sleeping hours, regular meals.

Reminiscence

2007-01-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

"as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends"

September suppose to be the happy month. My birthday falls in that month. Many of my friends too including my mum's. But September 8 2005. A day that will be etched in my memory forever.
Like the song in the above lyrics, 2 years has come and gone swiftly.

I tried not to step into the hole. Yet, I sunk into it deeper. Did my best not to care nor talk much. But silently, all I hope is that you are trouble-free and keep that smile on always.

"Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh"

Flipping through my virtual albums, I saw videos and photos of my past. The laughters, pain, sadness; it just like an old record album, playing a 20 sec videos of each photo. We can never go back to the past neither changing it. But we can try to fix and alter the course of the future by making an effort.

Why not just take 1-2hrs of your busy time, flip through your old albums. It might just make your day a better one =)

3 years down memory lane

2007-01-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

FYP's over! My final year project is done and dusted. Everything from here will be zoomed past like a speeding bullet.
2 weeks time, I will be graduating from school and it will be sad to miss all the fun I had in school during this 3 years.
I am completely lost in directions as to go where after NS. University studies or job-seeking remains my priority and I do hope I can secure either one once ORD. The end of a study life is the start of an adulthood's life. From here, I am pretty independent on myself already.

"And it might not make much sense to you or any of my friends
Though somehow still you affect the things I do.
And you cant lose what you never had I dont understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new."

Totally WTF

2007-01-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

Portsmouth full-back Glen Johnson has been given an on-the-spot fine for stealing bathroom fittings.

England defender Johnson, on loan at Pompey from Chelsea, and Millwall striker Ben May were caught at B&Q in Dartford, Kent, on Wednesday.

The pair were spotted by a security guard putting a toilet seat into a box with a cheaper price tag before they reached the checkout, The Sun reported.

Gym Supplements

2007-01-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

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Appearance

2007-01-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

does appearance really matters?
appearance of oneself tells other's your character, age, personality, fashion-sense etc.

my appearance has once again comes under the microscope when i met with a certain neighbour from my block.

*i was pushing my bicycle in*

Neighbour: "hi which floor ?"
Me: "9 please, thanks"
Neighbour: "studying?"
Me : "Yeah, in polytechnic, graduating in about 4 weeks time"
Neighbour: "Wow,i see. Pardon me for asking..How old are you?"
Me: "20 this year"
Neighbour: "You look younger than your age!"

I don't know to take this as an compliment or as a sarcastic view.
For girls, people saying them young would be a compliment but for me, it means that I have not reached a certain maturity yet.

Wonder this youthful face of mine will last till when...

updates

2007-01-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

8 days to FYP submission.

10 days just zoomed past the new year and we are down with 4 more weeks of studies.
and the year for school to stage open houses means that O level results coming out soon *cross finger*

FYP has become more of a chore rather than an enriching one with everyone rushing in to meet datelines.

Circle or Cycle ?

2007-01-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

Life does gets represented by a circle. A cycle that either gets ended or restarted.

Boy meets girl. Girl meets boy.
Feeling develop, dating starts. Problems arose, break-up.
A few months of cooling down, some might patch up, some don't.
For those who does, one cycle's ending is the start of another.

Baby birth. Grow up to teenager.
Enjoy peak of life during teen-adulthood. Retire at 50-60's. Illness,Death follows.
Reincarnation ? maybe.

Circles. Chain of circles make a network.
In your own chain, you know a certain group of people.
In another chain, you know someone who's in there who knows someone from you own chain.
Link it up, you get a chain of friends.

2007

2007-01-01T13:26:00.000+08:00

well well, its 2007 alright. another year has past in a zip and reality comes back in place.

Here's the already planned 2007 schedule:

5 weeks to graduation.
2 weeks to finish up Final Year Project.

2 to 4 months to slack/work/holiday.

Get Enlisted into the Army for at least 2 years.
Either sign-on with army or get into university.

So what has it been in 2006?

I can't recall much.
But 2006 was a year where friends,families and studies kept me busy and happy.
So nonetheless, 2007 will be a great year for all !

2006-12-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

back posting ? lol

it's my last week of holidays now. When school starts, I am left with 5 weeks before graduation. Thats freaking fast.

Supposed to hit Malaysia this month, but poor decisions and planning blew the trip.
So I guess its after graduation?
This whole month has been spent in school, working out etc. Not working at all. haha

It amazing how you see life everyday; its just a like a drama.

When the buying stops, the killing can too!

2006-12-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

2006-10-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

the haze is killing me.
sore throat. runny nosy. sore eyes. shortness of breath.
prays that my asthma dont relapse.

work work work. my memory is worsening everyday. forget my keys, forget my cash.
($6.90 shortage in my cashier counter) don't know which f**king customer took and run away.
working at the cashier let u see and experience ppl from all walks of life.
the "Cat" ones, the "kpkb" ones, the "happy-go-lucky" ones.
ever i start work, my weight went down by 2 kg. but its ok.NAPFA and O lvls priority now.

lets just say. school just offically started. There are only two modules I can score in. But expectatiosn are high. I am aiming a A for my FYP and lest a B for my 3D works. I tell you, I totally cant draw what i visualise.

SLEEP. I need sleep. I am so tired , that i got off one stop before my destination. Stared at the EXIT signboard and say trains coming in 3"mins" when the screen was just diretly above me.

2006-10-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

oh man. picture this. I am drawing and I must say it is improving.
I am not a typical Art student. but because of what i have to study, i have to start picking up drawing skills.
luckily its modelling on the computer only. handwritten drawing ? kills me

thanks for all the people who help made this year one of the more significant birthday of my life. well afterall, its my first poly celebration. and i took the elevator in the school for the first time. haha

FYP. new team, new directions. but i am very pleased with the state of progress now. we got a supervisor who we know and can talk cock to. so everything seems to be smooth sailing. as for work, its really taking a toll out of my life but the money rewarded back is lucrative. oh well, get my license and i will 'zhao' (run)

NAPFA in a months time. time to start running. and get my stamina. probably gonna cut botak next mth or maybe earlier. wahaha. me in botak, after 5 years. that will be a sight surely.

2006-09-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

ok. why i haven updated.
thats because I just started working, just started school

7 days a week, I am probably at home only on Wednesday with lesser stress.

Working has been fun $$ rolling in , but working till 11 and reaching home at 12 am, and waking up the next morning at 6.30 a.m is crazy
lol but for $$ .. i dun mind.. i am very tight on pocket budgets

bbeen watching prison break lately. danm nice show.. got me hooked on it even i am so freaking tired after work. I watched till 3 plus on two days running.. hitting my 10th episodes already.

i dunno why i have the ability to inteprate things so well., read into peoples word. i can say , its hard to hide things from when you let me see a small clue. and i know of somethign recently thats gonna happen real soon. but i just keep hush. let the suprise roll =o

2006-09-08T15:34:00.000+08:00

ok . i have changed my tagboard. admist all the trouble caused
i probabaly change my layout someday when i am free. haha .. got to start putting in what i learnt to use. lazy bummer .

so what i have been up to for the past two weeks of holidays ?
basically slacking in the first and went to job agency and looked for jobs.
reading up a FAIR BIT of stuff on my Maths O levels.

secoond week. basically went back to school for the 4 days workshop. nothing much. just explaining some codes to them,guide them throught their flash animation production.
some are talented. some are lazy. some are basically bothersome.
in between, managed to squeeze time to go to Cedric house to get some games.
Railroad Tycoon 3 being one

I love playing with trains . haha

2006-08-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

did i mention FYP presentation was so ... !@#@!!

ok nvm .. it was like 2 weeks back already ... but how fate twist around so fast (hopefully)
well, i shall just wait for the approved news. looking for this collaboration.

holiday. no job. sch commitments. yesterday went back to school help out setup the location for the upcoming Action Script workshop. Sep 4- Sep8 , 9-5 daily.

G302 coming. change of team. well hopefully, its another fruitful experience.
2nd semester and Final of my RP years. slacking ? dota-ing? or mugging seriosly ?
well life in RP has nv been "stressful" =o

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Something out of school context. The recent SG idol is starting to irritate me.
Talents get booted out because of low votes. JG definetly cant sing, what a danm bloody smug.
i was so suprised to see, maltida and nurul maidin got out. their singing sure beats JG
and guess what ? i even saw a mercedes with Jonathan Leong's advertisment. lol

2006-08-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

so this week.

took "leave" to work at NTU, selling laptops. Sales was not too bad, pay was quite ok, but the Environment is SUPERB.

school work. Closing of one semester. Gosh. 6 more months to GRADUATION.
seriosly, i think i no life . hahah

2006-08-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

now i found my positions within their hearts.

using lies not once but twice.
not bothering to share with me
i am just an imaginary friend who translates only words over MSN chat and SMS only.
that's fine.

i dunno should i feel hurt, sad or stupid.

i guess either suits well.

2006-08-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

trust; erase that from my dictionary

my level of trust has reached it's peak.
some people thought things could just be hidden from me but apparently not
i'm neither blind nor deaf and if there are things to be hidden, hide it well
'cause when i find out myself,things will be ugly

i don't like that you try to say something about me in front of my "presence"
neither do i like words with thorns
don't even bother to tell me things in truth and make me look like some fool
as though i nv cared.
thats fine with me; if that's what you wanted

2006-08-06T01:20:00.000+08:00

its feel so terrible not to be able to ask or to be someone's listening ears
ever occured, who's always asking about your problems and yet can do nothing ?

if things were like in secondary school. young and naive
time just continue to stay there.

as i grow older, i start to think alot. every places i go , my brain nv stops thinking or wandering.
reflections they call.
nosey thats what i think.

but that's just me.
for friends out there dating, i know its been a tough month . i am not a good confider. but then again , i just hope things will straighten out for you and your partner soon
and that ever need someone to talk to, just msg me

2006-08-05T02:40:00.000+08:00

why do i make it difficult on myself by bothering about other people's problem.

fyp overs . 1st year coming. fyp presentation. napfa. 2nd sem. army.

basically thats how its going to be for now.

2006-07-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

i think my life is incomplete.
at the highest point, i accomplished many things.
yet the lowest point , i fail to keep the friends and family members around me happy.

keep a side happy , the other side gets imbalanced.
and how can u keep this society unbiased?

things u do , ppl do not see, they deem u failure.
yet if u make a show in front and dont do anything at the back.. u get the results ,flying colors in fact.